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My day began as normal for ME….. I got up slowly, fighting the pain and telling myself, ‘move and it will ease’, as it often did! I began to read …..

Dear Denise,
….. It was my feeling that when we met that you had nuisance physical symptoms, but without a serious medical cause to underpin this. It is possible that you might have a chronic fatigue syndrome or fibromyalgia, but there is no pointer to anything serious ……

This was it! The Beginning Of The End. The beginning of knowing and the end of not knowing. I had a diagnosis at last! Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and/or Fibromyalgia Syndrome!

What does this mean I ask myself. Of course over a span of 12 years I’d heard of these things and on my easier days had wondered if that was what I too had. But still it seemed to make a mockery of the pain I was feeling.

When we met that you had NUISANCE Physical Symptoms …..

It is POSSIBLE that you MIGHT have a Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia Syndrome …..

There is NO pointer to ANYTHING SERIOUS …..

These thoughts raced through my head and came to live with me for the following 2 years. The Doctor’s comments are all well and good if you don’t have to live with the weird symptoms that I have on a day to day basis. They are more than just nuisance physical symptoms, that you can become accustomed to, they feel extremely serious. CFS/ME and Fibromyalgia, could well describe what is wrong with me. But was that it? nothing more? No assistance? No help?

What was I to do?

the past ...

The Past …..
Where do I begin? Where did it begin? I would say that my past has always been filled with pain. Pain of one sort or another. First emotional pain followed by physical pain. In fact pain has been my fellow companion for so long, I can’t recall ever being without it.

Since the age of 23 years I had been ill. Sometimes quite severely. I have been treated for depression, migraine, liver problems, viral and bacterial illness, I have had counselling, I have taken anxiety management courses, I have had systematic desensitization treatment, I have had ultra sound treatment, I have had so many x~rays I almost glow, I have had more blood tests than I have blood, I am a professional patient!

Then, at the age of 28 years, I began to have very severe headaches, and pain in my eyes and face, after having a period of ill health, stress, anxiety and depression. The pain was so intense, so much, so that on one occasion I visited the doctors twice in one day. I was told it was just a different kind of migraine, and so my pain began. It has been a daily occurance since that day on!

I have been told I have many illnesses, treated

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good days! ...

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friends ...

I think sometimes you don’t have friends when you are ill. Too sick to go out, too sick to laugh, too sick to even cry …

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ME or FMS ...

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family ...

I think sometimes you don’t have family when you are ill. Too sick to go out, too sick to laugh, too sick to even cry …

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bad days! ...

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The Futurte …..
Where do I end? Where did it end? I would say that …

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the end of the beginning ...

My day began as normal for ME….. I got up slowly, fighting the pain and telling myself, ‘move and it will ease’, as it often did! I began to read …..

Dear Denise,
….. It was my feeling that when we met that you had nuisance physical symptoms, but without a serious medical cause to underpin this. It is possible that you might have a chronic fatigue syndrome or fibromyalgia, but there is no pointer to anything serious ……

This was it! The Beginning Of The End. The beginning of knowing and the end of not knowing. I had a diagnosis at last! Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and/or Fibromyalgia Syndrome!

What does this mean I ask myself. Of course over a span of 12 years I’d heard of these things and on my easier days had wondered if that was what I too had. But still it seemed to make a mockery of the pain I was feeling.

When we met that you had NUISANCE Physical Symptoms …..

It is POSSIBLE that you MIGHT have a Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia Syndrome …..

There is NO pointer to ANYTHING SERIOUS …..

These thoughts raced through my head and came to live with me for the following 2 years. The Doctor’s comments are all well and good if you don’t have to live with the weird symptoms that I have on a day to day basis. They are more than just nuisance physical symptoms, that you can become accustomed to, they feel extremely serious. CFS/ME and Fibromyalgia, could well describe what is wrong with me. But was that it? nothing more? No assistance? No help?

What was I to do?

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